Entao e aqui estou eu outra vez, ja la vai um tempinho (ou um tempao, melhor dizendo)!

Bem.. possivelmente nao virei aqui muitas vezes actualizar este blog, entre tratar de mim e da minha filha, tratar dos papeis da galeria, ser fiance e preparar para a Universidade... pouco tempo tenho para vir aqui actualizar o blog. A vida as vezes consegue ser bem cheia e complicada, mas tambem, se nao fosse por isso nao haveria qualquer razao para aqui estar!

E assim, aqui estou com uma vida completamente a' esquerda daquilo que eu imaginava, mas afinal nem e' assim tao mal! Talvez porque no fundo nao e' bem como eu temia: sim tenho uma filha e vivo... praticamente casada, mas ao contrario do que muitos diziam, contiuo a aproveitar a vida! Neste momento estou a espera da resposta da Universidade, o que em principio nao tem qualquer motivo para nao ser positiva. Abri uma galeria com o meu fiance'/boyfriend/husband (lol e' engracado, mas e' verdade posso dizer de qualquer maneira!); e estou a organizar sessoes de filme de curta metragem e shows de fashion, etc ., etc. e etc.

Nao saio tanto como saia, porque nao tenho quem fique com a minha pequenita durante a noite. Sim, e' um pouco chato as vezes mas tenho uma pessoa ao meu lado que faz questao de me fazer esquecer esses pequenos pormenores!Nao tenho muito dinheiro, sim e' verdade, mas tenho outras coisas em grande abundancia e estamos a tentar, a tentar seguir os nossos sonhos, que ao contrario do que muitos pensam, nao foram esmagados com os ultimos acontecimentos, muito pelo contrario, o nascimento da minha tolitah so os enforteceu mais! (E deixou-me mais lamexas tambem! :/ lol )

Entao para todos os que me disseram "tira", todos os que me disseram "vais-te tornar no que nao querias" e todos que me deitaram mau karma, aqui vai uma licao de mim! A vida nao para so porque encontraste rochas no meio do caminho; em vez de parar e lamuriar o que podias ter sido, aprende com a experiencia. Talvez possas fazer arte com a rocha no meio do teu caminho, talvez ela apareceu para te dar o que estavas a perder na tua vida!

"This, what you say you are, is not what you are but istead what you were, for we live in the remainings of yesterday! Today is just the result of yesterday's choices, and tomorrow will be of today's. And so, if you believe in your dream and spend your day with a smile, what do you think tomorrow will be like..?" :P

"Impossible is only that what your mind believes it to be"

-Osvaldo Sales-

disseram-me o mesmo quando vim, nao sei se devo acreditar ou nao,nunca acreditei em contos de fada de qualquer modo... O que me irrita mais e' que no final de tudo, acabo por esperar que eles tenham razao. Se for como dizem..se for como os sonhadores dizem, entao voltaremo-nos a ver.. mas se nao.. quero q saibas q posso virar paginas e paginas do livro, e cada pagina pode ser um novo comeco mas a imagem de fundo e' sempre a mesma.

Nao adianta tentar esquecer, seria guerra perdida de qualquer modo. Mas voltar atras nao e' opcao.

eu disse que avisava quando deixasse de sentir, eu disse q virei a pagina do livro nao disse q a imagem de fundo mudo ... Bahibak

Cold
Lying in my bed
Staring into darkness

Lost
I hear footsteps overhead
And my thoughts return
Again

Like a child who's run away
And won't be coming back...

... try stay alive until...

by Dream Theatre



pensei que tinha, mas afinal nao.. parece q a porta nao tem trinco. talvez compre um fexo.. afinal nao e' isso que se deve fazer?
Sera que preciso de um melhor? mais caro, mais resistente? nao da pra trancar e a forca ja esvasia do corpo..
Como era bom se as coisas fizessem o que os donos querem... pensando bem, talvez assim ela nunca se tivesse seker fechado..

A razao nao consegue justificar o sentido,
a sensacao de que no meio de tanta vida algo ainda esta por nascer.
Os passos seguem o caminho, a estrada rumo a um fim, um motivo.
Agora, o agora, o momento, a decisao... da um passo em frente,
trespasa a linha num ultimo folego, numa ultima certeza.
Fecha a porta, mais alguns passos. Olha para tras... sim, a porta esta fechada.

bah cansei..

"Depois vem a altura em que se quer tudo outra vez.

Tal e qual. Antes de se ser adulto ou coisa parecida.

Sabes que nunca se volta a ser oq ue se era

porque o tempo tem instrumentos de tatuar

e o segundo nao volta igual.

guarda-se tudo numa caixinha...pequena

Que se abre de vez em quando

e volta-se a nocao de que no presente

Quer-se tudo outra vez."

Tiago Bettencourt

kk coisa assim do genero, de kk modo sao simples palavras, eventos ou seja la o que isso for. Fecha a porta e pronto.

Last week, one of my teachers from my sociology class, read an old article about an existing tribe. This article was conducted by anthropologists and is now often referred and analyzed by sociologists “as an example of the extremes to which human behavior can go”. After reading the article, my teacher asked what we thought about the tribe described in the article. Fairly enough, we started brainstorming our ideas on the subject; the ideas were basically the following:

Paranoiac, Sadistic tribe, immoral rituals, illiterate people, ignorance, oppression of Nature and humanity among the tribe customs, patriarchy, etc.

Since the article is extremely long, I’ll divide it in sections for an easy reading. So here goes the reason for the ideas (above) my class had regarding to the Nacirema tribe:

Tribe Profile:

Name: Nacirema

Location: “A North American group living in the territory between the Canadian Cree, the Yaqui and Tarahumare of Mexico, and the Carib and Arawak of the Antilles. Little is known of their origin, although tradition states that they came from the east”

Culture description: “Characterized by a highly developed market economy which has evolved in a rich natural habitat.”

Fundamental Belief: “The human body is ugly and its natural tendency is to debility and disease.” – “the appearance and health of which (the human body) loom as a dominant concern in the ethos of the people.”

Sociological system structure:

- “The more powerful individuals in the society have several shrines in their houses”
- “The opulence of a house is often referred to in terms of the number of such ritual centers it possesses”
- “Poorer families imitate the rich by applying pottery plaques to their shrine walls."
- "A few women afflicted with almost inhuman hyper mammary development are so idolized that they make a handsome living by simply going from village to village and permitting the natives to stare at them for a fee"

Relevant aspects:

- "The Nacirema have an almost pathological horror of and fascination with the mouth, the condition of which is believed to have a supernatural influence on all social relationships. Were it not for the rituals of the mouth, they believe that their teeth would fall out, their gums bleed, their jaws shrink, their friends desert them, and their lovers reject them."

- "The focal point of the shrine is a box or chest which is built into the wall. In this chest are kept the many charms and magical potions without which no native believes he could live. These preparations are secured from a variety of specialized practitioners (…) the medicine men, whose assistance must be rewarded with substantial gifts. However, the medicine men do not provide the curative potions for their clients, but decide what the ingredients should be and then write them down in an ancient and secret language. This writing is understood only by the medicine men and by the herbalists who, for another gift, provide the required charm. The charm is not disposed of after it has served its purpose, but is placed in the charm box of the household shrine.”

- "The magical packets are so numerous that people forget what their purposes were and fear to use them again. While the natives are very vague on this point, we can only assume that the idea in retaining all the old magical materials is that their presence in the charm-box, will in some way protect the worshiper. “

- "No matter how ill the supplicant or how grave the emergency, the guardians of many temples will not admit a client if he cannot give a rich gift to the custodian."

- "The Nacirema believe that parents bewitch their own children. Mothers are particularly suspected of putting a curse on children while teaching them the secret body rituals."

- "Intercourse is taboo as a topic and scheduled as an act. Efforts are made to avoid pregnancy by the use of magical materials or by limiting intercourse to certain phases of the moon. Conception is actually very infrequent. When pregnant, women dress so as to hide their condition. Parturition takes place in secret, without friends or relatives to assist, and the majority of women do not nurse their infants."


Rituals/practices:

"The holy-mouth-man opens the client's mouth and, using the above mentioned tools ( augers, awls, probes, and prods) enlarges any holes which decay may have created in the teeth. Magical materials are put into these holes. If there are no naturally occurring holes in the teeth, large sections of one or more teeth are gouged out so that the supernatural substance can be applied. In the client's view, the purpose of these ministrations is to arrest decay and to draw friends. The extremely sacred and traditional character of the rite is evident in the fact that the natives return to the holy-mouth-men year after year, despite the fact that their teeth continue to decay. "

"...a very interesting pattern emerges, for most of the population shows definite masochistic tendencies. It was to these that Professor Linton referred in discussing a distinctive part of the daily body ritual which is performed only by men. This part of the rite includes scraping and lacerating the surface of the face with a sharp instrument."

"Women bake their heads in small ovens for about an hour. The theoretically interesting point is that what seems to be preponderantly masochistic people have developed sadistic specialists."

"Small children whose indoctrination is still incomplete have been known to resist attempts to take them to the temple because "that is where you go to die." Despite this fact, sick adults are not only willing but eager to undergo the protracted ritual purification ..."

" Female clients (...) find their naked bodies are subjected to the scrutiny, manipulation and prodding of the medicine men. (...) The daily ceremonies, like the rites of the holy-mouth-men, involve discomfort and torture."

"At other times they insert magic wands in the supplicant's mouth or force him to eat substances which are supposed to be healing. From time to time the medicine men come to their clients and jab magically treated needles into their flesh. The fact that these temple ceremonies may not cure, and may even kill the neophyte, in no way decreases the people's faith in the medicine men."

“other rites are used to make women's breasts larger if they are small, and smaller if they are large. General dissatisfaction with breast shape is symbolized in the fact that the ideal form is virtually outside the range of human variation."

“practices have their base in native esthetics but depend upon the pervasive aversion to the natural body and its functions. There are ritual fasts to make fat people thin and ceremonial feasts to make thin people fat."

Overview:


"Our review of the ritual life of the Nacirema has certainly shown them to be a magic-ridden people. It is hard to understand how they have managed to exist so long under the burdens which they have imposed upon themselves."


Yeah, some of us were sleeping half of the time, but those who paid attention to the article had extreme opinions about the Nacirema ppl. You should have seen the strong reaction we had (I didn’t say a word though). Anyways, at the end of it all we were completely astonished when our teacher told us to read NACIREMA backwards. And then she said, “this is what u ppl think about your own society, this tribe is us”. This article is usually used in sociology university programs, with the purpose to make students understand a little bit of their own society and think about their own reactions to it. I know it’s a very long and dry article, but I thought was worth it.